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What If

Many times the thought crosses my mind if I made the right choice or chose the right path in life. I find myself pondering on the "what ifs" and I wonder why. No decision is ever an easy decision and I have always tried to make rational ones. But sometimes, you're in a moment and you stop thinking and you just go with it. Other times I find myself over thinking things and we all know that never ends well. You end up ruining things and creating problems that weren't there in the first place. Finding a balance is something I am learning to do. I am always reminded to pray over decisions that are to be made. 
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. Proverbs 16:9

 There are 24 days left until Miss Alabama USA and I could not be more excited! However, with this excitement comes the nerves, anxiety, and stress. Recently I have found myself lying awake at night with a million thoughts running through my mind (doing my hair has become the most prevalent haha). I am so blessed to have this opportunity. But with this opportunity I feel the pressures of everything around me and everyone I represent. The feeling of disappointing others makes me cringe inside and is one of the most upsetting feelings I have ever had to deal with. But I am reminded that God has a plan for my life and I can only pray that maybe this is a part of it. 
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

 Life has a way of working itself out all in the way He has planned. But also in His timing. Remember that. 
Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time. -Oswald Chambers

 xoxo

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