The Summer of Storms.
The title says it all. This season of life started about two months ago with a phone call from my mom saying your aunt has breast cancer. I asked a lot of questions, mainly about medications (because what else would I be asking about), but I made a conscious effort to stay strong in the moment. But the minute I hung up the phone and said the words out loud I lost it. I questioned so many things and constantly wondered why. As I began to accept what was happening, the rain came again.
About a week later one of my best friends called to tell me about a lump she had found in her neck. Not long after that she texted me to say she has cancer. Once again I asked many questions but continued to wonder why. I asked God why this was happening to everyone around me and what did they do to deserve this.
Fast forward a few days and my parents are talking to me about an antibiotic my dad started taking so of course I asked questions. He had found a lump in his neck, which we thought was an obstructed salivary gland. After two weeks he decided to see another doctor after no substantial progress. My dad had a scan that really didn't reveal to much (to my knowledge) and that was all I really knew. No one mentioned anything else so I didn't really ask many questions. This past week I had a week off from school so that's when we decided to take our family vacation. We were all sitting in the living room of the condo together when my dad started telling us about what had been going on. The day before we left for the beach my dad had a biopsy of the mass and all he could say was that it didn't look good. I immediately lost it. All I could think was that this could not possibly be happening. When would this ever end? Today we got official confirmation that my dad now also has cancer. To say I've been an emotional wreck is the understatement of the century.
I was directed to a sermon to listen to that was something I so desperately needed to hear. Acts 27:22 says to keep up your courage and tonight that is what I find myself clinging to. The message talked about not getting stuck in the reason why the storm is happening because you'll miss the revelation that God is trying to show. I now have shifted my perspective and my prayers that He will reveal His purpose and use me in a way that will help others. I ask for prayers and positive thoughts as we take on this next phase together as a family.
xoxo
The title says it all. This season of life started about two months ago with a phone call from my mom saying your aunt has breast cancer. I asked a lot of questions, mainly about medications (because what else would I be asking about), but I made a conscious effort to stay strong in the moment. But the minute I hung up the phone and said the words out loud I lost it. I questioned so many things and constantly wondered why. As I began to accept what was happening, the rain came again.
About a week later one of my best friends called to tell me about a lump she had found in her neck. Not long after that she texted me to say she has cancer. Once again I asked many questions but continued to wonder why. I asked God why this was happening to everyone around me and what did they do to deserve this.
Fast forward a few days and my parents are talking to me about an antibiotic my dad started taking so of course I asked questions. He had found a lump in his neck, which we thought was an obstructed salivary gland. After two weeks he decided to see another doctor after no substantial progress. My dad had a scan that really didn't reveal to much (to my knowledge) and that was all I really knew. No one mentioned anything else so I didn't really ask many questions. This past week I had a week off from school so that's when we decided to take our family vacation. We were all sitting in the living room of the condo together when my dad started telling us about what had been going on. The day before we left for the beach my dad had a biopsy of the mass and all he could say was that it didn't look good. I immediately lost it. All I could think was that this could not possibly be happening. When would this ever end? Today we got official confirmation that my dad now also has cancer. To say I've been an emotional wreck is the understatement of the century.
I was directed to a sermon to listen to that was something I so desperately needed to hear. Acts 27:22 says to keep up your courage and tonight that is what I find myself clinging to. The message talked about not getting stuck in the reason why the storm is happening because you'll miss the revelation that God is trying to show. I now have shifted my perspective and my prayers that He will reveal His purpose and use me in a way that will help others. I ask for prayers and positive thoughts as we take on this next phase together as a family.
xoxo
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